My apologies but this post is random, candid and uber impulsive so it will be written in Indonesian 😁🙏🏻
Disclaimer: I’m being very honest! You have been warned!
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Hari ini, 16 Nov 2018, ada iWorship edisi True Worshippers.
Gw tdnya uda males dateng. Kynya terakhir ikut ginian itu… 2010? 2011? LOL 🤣🙈 mana sakit kepala, macet gileee jalanan, parkir rame bgt dan manusia2 yg berjibun… Smp msk hall pun gw msh agak kzl sbnernya n menyesal knp gw ttp memutuskan dateng ya. I am not a fan of crowds.
Tapi untungnya emang mau skalian cek wifi UR dan emang mo support tmn2 kantor esp kak uce yg uda nerves dr kmrn2 (he did great tho! 👍🏻👏🏻). Plus pngen nyanyi2 lagu2 lama yg mengiringi early journey gw dr bertobat smp masa di jpcc part 1 (sblm kejatuhan dalam kemurtadan 😌🙈).
Pas msk lagu2 worship, dimulai dari yg “bagiMu Tuhan sgala pujian, hormat, kemuliaan. Tiada ternilai salibMu Tuhan. Sungguh berharga Engkau Yesus” terus sampe ke Hosanna… Semua liriknya nancep2 euy. God’s presence kerasa bgt dan Holy Spirit mulai bisik2…. Gw akhirnya ga tahan! Dr yg cuma berkaca2 akhirnya smp mewek maksimal kluarin tisu (meper di jaket uda ga ketampung) 🤣.
I was reminded of my journey, terutama pas gw kuliah ke belanda sendirian, trus salah pergaulan (20 years ago gile!).
Smp bertobat, dibaptis (18 yrs ago 😱), pelayanan dan kzl sm greja lama n gembalanya 🤣….
Stressnya kuliah, sulit tapi fun nya ngulik n latian lagu TW, GMB, Hillsong dkk utk pelayanan musik every Sunday…
How I finally decided to be rooted in JPCC (setelah visit bertaun2 kl pas libur kuliah/pulang jkt) dan DATE Tanjung Duren 1, melayani, “naik daun” untuk kemudian ilfil drastis n menghilang for almost 3 years… Trus tetiba bestie gw yg jd DL 🤣, so gw balik DATE ke Westmark 1… Ealah trus malah jadi staff gereja 🤣🤣🤣🙈🙈🙈
Drama bgt ya hidupqu 🤣
Anyway, through semuanya itu, gw diingetin bahwa setiap langkah hidup gw Tuhan yg pimpin, sertai dan lindungi. Regardless of my background, of all the negatives thrown at me: being born unwanted, of never being good enough for my abusive dad, of my broken family dan semua kejadian ga enak or salah yg gw pernah alami… Gw masih ada loh skrg begini, dalam keadaan baik2 aja, tidak kekurangan. Itu kl bukan Tuhan, mana mungkin?
Nah Tuhan yg dulu sayang n lindungi gw dr gw bayi, msh Tuhan yg sama yg sayang n lindungi gw skrg.
Dia yg jagain gw, yg ga akan tinggalin gw. Bahkan Dia punya a special plan for me because He has created me this way: special, precious and fully capable of doing what He wants me to do… for a purpose!
Dia udah milih gw, Dia yg panggil gw untuk melayani Dia smp gw mati nanti.
Gimana gak terharu maksimal?!
Yg gw diingetin tadi ini bkn cuma buat gw loh. Dia sayang bgt sm kita semua. Terlepas dr perjalanan dan kisah hidup masing2 kita.
He was always there for us, He is here with us and will always be there with us every step of the way.
Nothing is out of His control.
Kita ada d sini bukan kebetulan. Kita begini, apa yg kita alami… Semua ada maksudnya. It’s all part of His plan for us. And He still has great things in store for our future walopun mgkn skrg kita ga bs liat itu or ngerti itu.
Sama dengan kita yg dulu yg pasti ga kebayang bisa jd kita yg skrg.
Coba deh kalian take time to reflect n look back on ur life. Pasti penyertaan Dia n campur tangan Dia ada dimana2. Cuma kitanya aja dulu ga nyadar 😁
Our God is awesome 🙏🏻
Jangan lupa say thank you n jangan pernah lupa kebaikan Dia ya. Selalu nempel sm Dia, selalu inget Dia in everything u do. Serve Him, bless others. Don’t run away no matter what. Hang in there!
Trust me, hidup jauh dr Dia dan dr komunitas itu sucks bgt. So dry. So useless. We are not made to live without Him 😁
Ciayoooo everyone! He loves us very much 😁